I've been following your sitch and know that Soup says as much as I can. All I can tell you is that I find whatever peace and patience I have through Christ. Nothing else worked until I accpeted Him into my life. I can't explain it, but that's the God honest truth (no pun intended). The Holy Spirit working as intended.
W and the kids came back yesterday and the first thing W said to me is if I watered the hanging plants on our front steps. I never watered these in my life, so I said, "I didn't know I had to."
W: Well you didn't and they died. Me (in my head): Oh well.
W then immediately pursues in the kitchen and asks if I'm concenred about how she is feeling because she is not well. She asks if I'm just waiting for her to crash so I can declare victory and take the kids. I said I feel badly about the way she feels, but I have no intention of talking about our sitch while the kids are around.
W pursues: Why do you feel badly? Why are you upset about how I feel? Do you have any ideaq what it is like to feel as I do.
I just backed off and said I will not talk to her about us while the kids are around. As she pursued further and I moved away she followed with her usual verbal assualt that I won't listen to her (the rope she uses to lead me back in to get whacked again). She finally backed off and was reasonable for the rest of the day.
At night, her first back, she went out until about 2:30 a.m.
This morning, she got up late and wanted to go to noon mass. I decided that I really didn't want to be around her, so I went at 10:30 a.m. with D6. W complained that she thought it would be nice if we all went as a family.
Me (inside my Head): WTF??? I just said that I didn't want to wait around and left. Indeed, I ended up sitting with W's parents at Church!
I'll keep my fingers crossed for a halfway normal day.
