Well, had my next step at the doctor's. Not the most comfortable thing I have gone through. H was very sweet and got up early (for him) to go with me. All of his nervousness made me feel much calmer.

The doctor did see something, inside of the cervix. Not sure what it is, so he took a biopsy. He said that we should know within a week.

I'm a little weird, H seemed fine. We had a nice lunch together, and then I had to head back to work.

Things are going pretty well between us. He's been extra anxious and clingy. Doesn't go out nearly as much anymore--he told me last night that he just didn't enjoy it like he did a few months ago. I guess that adds some credibility to my theory that all of the running around and party is really just overcompensation.

I'm not feeling so needy anymore all of the time. Actually, I could use a good night out with my friends. I still have days where I feel less okay. Had it a bit yesterday. But they're not so bad. I just tell H that I'm feeling insecure, and he gives me a big hug. I told him that it gets better over time. He asked if he would feel better, too, and I said of course he would. Sometimes I forget he was really hurt in all of this, too, and it's good to hear.

We're talking about taking a cooking class together. Neither of us knows how to make a lot of stuff. It's not that I can't cook, I just don't think of things. He really liked the idea, said he wanted to go with me. It should be fun.

Psycho--the exroommate of his--still calls. It was quiet for two weeks, and then all of the sudden there three calls. She seems to think she has some claim on these pictures of his, which just makes him mad. I keep asking if he'll let me answer the phone. He said he might if she keeps calling. He asked if I would be rude, and I said no, I would just say that he was unavailable. The time I answered at MIL's and it was her, she was really rattled. (Well...what did she expect?? They're my family, too!)

I'm a bit uncomfortable from the doctor visit. I feel kind of...well..crampy and periody. I think a lot of it's in my head. Ah, well. All necessary.

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