moving forward II -- it's a bright, sun-shiny day!

[Lyrael]

Nev-
Since you've never steered me wrong before, I am going to ask your input. I am having a REALLY hard time because I am flashing back a lot to the A's - it's coming out as irritability, anger, rage and some of it was because I was sifting through old papers, reading my journal from the beginning of our separation, one-year anniversary of that, and I was reading a book about a 15-year-old who has an affair with a married man and gets pregnant (good book, bad timing).

Anyway, I have been pretty bitchy, and tonight I stooped to a level I haven't gone to in a long time - I snooped in H's e-mail. So, here's my question: what do I do now? I don't know if I need space, or time, or whatever to get through this latest bout of A-trauma. Do you think I should tell him I looked in his e-mail?

I need an honest opinion, and I really hope that this post has not stirred up any bad stuff for you.
Lots of love,
Myrrh