I'm sorry your H has put you in the unenviable position of comforting him when you are experiencing feelings of anxiety and worry without adding him to the mix.
I want to take a few minutes to offer what comfort I can. (Never did I ever imagine sharing this stuff with the world...)
I have had cervical cancer and have HPV present as well. Although all the literature and videos I've watched have indicated it IS transmitted sexually, you realize that there is absolutely no point in wondering how you ended up with it?
Blame is a useless thing and also a cheeseless tunnel, and I'm happy that you don't seem to be buying into this one.
I found out I was pregnant with D7 3 days after I got the grim news... and the good news is that I was able to carry her to full term without complications. Her disability is genetic and not at all related to this stuff.
The colposcopies are just a teensy bit uncomfortable--only because they can cause some cramping, bleeding and/or nausea, depending on the location. Same goes for the biopsies. With a lot of diligence and luck on your part, you can have this behind you in short order.
I have also read that research scientists are studying the effects of HPV on men--wondering if there is any link to prostate cancer? More on this one as time marches on, I'm sure.
I'm absolutely diligent with my paps, and have been cancer free for 5 years now. All my parts are still intact too! I have more than a handful of friends who have traveled this route--all with happy stories and reports and who are happy and healthy today. Somehow, I am hoping you will fall into that category as well.
If I might offer anything on this subject, you are both entitled to your feelings. As much as this galls me to say, why not validate his feelings and use them as a stepping stone to discussing your own? Sharing this stuff is certainly an intimacy builder, and it might be something that helps move the 2 of you back toward each other.
Good luck and keep the faith!
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
I have more than a handful of friends who have traveled this route--all with happy stories and reports and who are happy and healthy today. Somehow, I am hoping you will fall into that category as well.
Betsey 
