Not much for the weekend. I was feeling very cooped up--no money until the new salary kicks in. H is feeling veeeery clingy--kind of getting on my nerves, but I actually understand the feeling, so it's not too bad.

He's still worried about the whole doctor thing. (The appointment is this afternoon.) I'm okay. He thinks it's weird. I told him I was upset and worried for a few hours, and now there's no reason to worry until I see what the doctor has to say. (DB at it's finest--leaking over into other areas of my life! )

H even had offers from a couple of people to go out Sunday. He told me he turned them down because he had promised to spend time with me. (:D Pre-bomb source of stress...H always ditching me at the last minute to go out.) I said I wanted to go out, and asked if he wanted to go anyway. H said the idea hadn't occurred to him, but that he would rather go home and cuddle anyway. (So we stayed in...also saves on gas right now.)

I was in a weird mood yesterday. Finally tracked it down...this time a year ago is when things got really strange between us. When xow was heavily influencing him. I realized that I was just dwelling... H caught on that I was really somewhere else, and I finally told him why. He just gave me a big hug and apologized.

I went to bed a little late. We were watching a movie, and I didn't realize what time it was. He put me to bed...

When he came to bed, he was upset again. (I've noticed he gets upset when he's tired.) I can't remember exactly what he was saying...but there were a lot of apologies and "I can't believe I acted that way..." H is really embarassed and ashamed of the way he treated me. I try not to bring it up--I know how bad he feels. I think he's also very anxious about this appointment. He asked me to hold him, and I did. I tried to give him a massage, but when you're tired, it doesn't work too well.

He was pretty clingy when I left for work this morning. Kept asking me if I was okay (about the doctor). I really am calm. I think he's never seen me this way before, and isn't sure what to think about it. I also think he keeps asking because he's not. I'm almost certain it's just an infection...I'm prone to those, anyway.

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