Noticed this again with my H last night--it still surprises me. So I'm starting to calm down again, after we reconciled, and starting to feel in control and relaxed and happy and confidant. All those nice things. (Funny how the reconciliation threw me sooo out of whack.) And now he's the one who is uptight and concerned and needy.

Actually, he's been pretty clingy lately. He couldn't wait for me to get off of work yesterday. I'm only here another 1 1/2 hour now...but when he called me in the afternoon, he said he couldn't hardly stand it. He also waited on me to get home from work to go the gym...and then didn't go at all since I couldn't until I ate. He ran out of time before he had to go to work. (And this is a guy obsessed with the gym.)

I also told H last night that my new payrate is going to kick in sooner than I had thought. He asked again if he could quit a job (he works at two bars now), and I told him of course he could. That way we can actually go out together on the weekends. He said he might not, because he really likes the people he works with at the second job--so he might just request days off now. Which will work just fine. At least now we can go out and have some fun together.

Anyway, I'm feeling calm. Told H that yesterday, and had thanked him for letting me be neurotic for awhile. Gave him a hug when he left for work. All that nice good stuff.

So when H came in last night, he was really upset. Kept going on about how he was still upset by something. Took me a minute to figure out what he was talking about, but it was an incident at my former job...during the first sep, and before I learned not to involve coworkers... Anyway, he was going on again about how hurt he was about the whole thing. Even in my sleep I can validate. (Actually, it's easier for me...a lot of my DBing was done in my sleep over the last few months...LOL)

Didn't argue with him or tell him my side of it. He actually then justified my actions a bit--said that I was listening to other people too much, and let them influence me. (Which kind of irritates me, because WTF did he think he was doing when he was hanging out with xow all the time?? If it weren't for that whore he would have never tried to leave me the first time...!)

He wanted me to go lay down with him on couch, but I was feeling pretty sick, so I asked him to just let me sleep. I must have been pretty congested, because I was having a hard time breathing with the smoke smell stuck on his shirt. Usually it's not such a big deal (even though it stinks).

He asked me again when I got up this morning to stay home from work. (I think he's asked me to stay home just about every day for the last two months. At least Labor Day is coming up... )

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