Quote: And my hair has just about doubled in size.
Ha ha! I'd like to see that! Do you like Monica when they went on vacation???
I'm responding to Friday's, so forgive me whilst I catch up.
I think I asked you this before, but please refresh my memory-do you work 8-5 hours? And, I'm not sure why your H expects you to be really happy and cheerful when getting woken up in the middle of the night. And, for some reason, waking up in the middle of the night sex is just weird. I've had that bizarre feeling of dreaming about stuff, then being woken up, and feeling like strangers or something?? Of course, I don't say no...haha...but I think I hear what you are saying. I mean read what you have written.
So, of course you feel like exploding-you're not eating like you should and not getting a good night's rest-makes for weary nerves.
H is obviously very sensitive from past issues which you know you cannot help. But, how are you saying things to him when you are saying you are upset or irritated about the house not being cleaner, etc.? Can you give us an example of how your interaction goes?
Another thing that I have noticed is that you feel the need to talk to him whenever you get upset. That's what got me into trouble. (It may not be the same for you, I'm just throwing this out there.) Can you try to rely on yourself more when you get upset? For example, rather than calling him, write in your journal or go for a walk, pray, whatever?? For some reason, relying on the other FEEDS into insecurity causing us (me) to feel even worse about ourselves and MORE dependent. Does that make sense??
