Never knew I was LD until I got married

[cinemanymph]

Thanks for the warm welcome and view from the other side.

My DH and I waited until we were married to consumate our R. I did not know how much weight sex carried in a marriage until after I was married. I was quite naive. We will be celebrating our 9th anniversary this fall.

I have achieved climax with DH. The level of climax is directly correlated to the level of depression experienced afterwards. The better the sex, the deeper the depression. We have sex about once a week and I live with the depression that follows about half the week. When the depression hits, I just don't want him or much of anything, for that matter. It's all I can do to attend to my obligations. I have told him this happens, but he just doesn't understand.

I have to assess what is required of me in the next few days in order to decide what level gratification I can achieve. He is not satified unless I have achieved climax. I have told him that I am willing to accomodate him without achieving climax, but for him it's all about my climax. If I don't, he feels cheated.

I have tryed antidepressants, which deaden my libido. I want to improve this sitch, but am at an impasse. Thanks in advance for your input.