Hi Movie Star, Welcome to the club. It is interesting that your post has brought out such a revealing post from AtlDave. It goes to show that the life of the HD is a turbulent swirl of emotions. He, like me has changed enormously in the last few months but underneath it all he is still fighting the same battle. I woke up just now feeling so full of love I could not help myself from reaching my arms out to W (who has told me not to cuddle her in bed in the mornings). She pulled away, annoyed, leaving me feeling the same dispair I have always felt despite months of training myself to self soothe. You will gain valuable insights on this forum into the way the HD mind works and hopefully you will provide us with some clues too. SD
