SuperDave is back!!! I don't know... A couple af days away on business and I get back to find my thread well and truly hijacked and deep into page three! But who am I to complain? It's been hijacked by my favourite HDW, honeypot. Next time honey, forget the thread, go direct and hijack ME (but not if you want more babies )! Ahh, that's better, vent follows shortly... SD
SD diary, Saturday night. Occasionally things happen that make you realise that most of the "improvements" in your situation don't actually exist other than in your own head. Or at least that is how it seems to me today. Last night which was after all a Friday was one of those times. She has been quite sympathetic asking me how I was feeling etc. so I assumed we would have some emotional connection time in bed if nothing else. I cuddled up to her and said that I wasn't feeling up to sex being a bit sore and before I could say anything else she said that she had no intention of doing anything anyway and rolled over to go to sleep. I weakly continued with my plan to offer her a bj which she dismissed so I was back to self-soothing again. One problem is that I am putting a lot of effort in supressing who I am, holding back from saying ILY, hugging, touching, whispering sweet nothings and the HD things you do so that she has more "space" to offer something to me. The trouble is that these offerings are few and far between and I can definitely see them eventually dry up altogether as time goes by. She would have no problems living a completely platonic life. This afternoon we were doing the laundry together because it rained and I brought all the washing in from the line outside. I was doing the ironing and she was sorting stuff so I decided to reveal how I was feeling (very loving) at that moment. I said (and I don't know why I chose these words) "Is it so wrong for me to want you in my arms?". She said blankly, "Yes, we are much too old for that nonsense" and walked out of the room. I was left feeling Fused and cheap. I disclosed my strong feelings at that moment for nothing... SD - Fused, cheap and heading rapidly towards infertility.
Quote: I was left feeling Fused and cheap. I disclosed my strong feelings at that moment for nothing...
So, SD, it sounds to me like you're actually AHEAD of the game, compared to where I was when W and I went downtown to celebrate our 25th anniversary. I felt pretty much the same way, except I didn't have the guts to self-disclose the way you did. Even if I had, it may not have changed much, but at least I would have had the comfort of knowing I was up to the challenge. You stepped up to the plate. Too bad there was no pitcher. Not sure if that translates into Cricket or not...
Anyway, the thing is to analyze that now, and discover WHY you felt the way you did... no doubt there are some clues there as to your fusion issue(s), which you can use to your eventual advantage, if you are wise...
Tim, you have a way of seeing differentiation and progress where others see gloom. Thanks. At last I now know what this "plate" is that I keep hearing about people stepping up to. It must be a thing in Baseball. We see no baseball here at all. The cricket equivalents are quite fun. You prepare yourself at the "crease" to face an "over" of six balls from the bowler during which you must protect your "wicket" which has three "stumps" and two "bails". If you are skilful you hit the ball and get the runs. If you get no runs then you got a "maiden over" - which sounds rather nice to me
SD diary Sunday 8am Last night we had quite a good discussion where I disclosed my twice a week goal again. The best thing about it is that at no point did I get over excited and talk too much but instead I made my point and left a long pause for her to think and occasionally reply. The pressure word came up again but I countered it by suggesting that the pressure is actually the gridlock that we must break through together. I think that some of the message got through and I am still convinced that we have a bright future to look forward to. SD
Friday morning. My gloom of this last week has lifted due to an amazing phenomonen last night. W initiated again! and it wasn't even Friday! After watching Big Brother she went upstairs for a bath. I had ordered two new books "How to make great love to a woman" and "How to make great love to a man" and they had arrived in the morning. I hadn't had a chance to read them but a quick skim through showed they were quite "tasteful". When W came into the bedroom I dropped the books on the bed saying I thought these might be interesting but she said "Put those away" in a horrified voice. I left the room saying "You put them away" and had my (fairly long to give her time to look at the books) bath. When I came back in, the books were nowhere to be seen and she was in bed. I turned off the light and got in (not expecting anything) I just lay there a while and she put her arm out so I cuddled her. We then talked for a while (I told her how lovely she is etc.) and suddenly she said that she was going to try to meet my needs every Friday but wasn't sure that she could manage 2x per week. I said that was OK because the other time per week could be cuddle time which would be just as good. She then said we could swap Friday for Thursday this week if I liked! She initiated - wonderful! I said some more lovely things to her and gradually wandered my way down. I asked her "Would you like me to take you all the way?" and she said "Yes please!". As things progressed she carressed by arms which she has never done before and even pushed my arm to show she wanted "treats". It was the best time ever. Tonight (Friday) all the children will be out so we will be on our own. This morning I asked her out for a meal tonight so I hope we will have a lovely time together. I can't believe this is happening. SD - In love and all over the place.
SuperDave, that is great news! When you mentioned that she caressed your arms, which she had never done before, it actually gave me goosebumps. When you "convert" your wife completely, please fly her to Missouri to have a talk with my wife.
In the "How to make great love to a man" book I have been reading today (notice I had to check HER book out first for accuracy) it tells a woman how to capture a man on the first date to the movies. It says to undo his cuff button and run your fingernails up and down his inner forearm. Pause half way every now and then and notice that he shifts his position. The nerves trace a path all the way down to his penis. I got goosebumps reading that. BTW These books are very Weiner/Schnarch compatible with the added bonus of sex technique stuff. SD
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