(((((Azure))))) I'm a phone call away sweetie if you want to talk! I'm up & alone ( ) and good to go w/ a glass of Merlot by my side. Shall I pour you a glass?
I'm sorry to hear about the developments - but if I have learned one thing here, it's that we can never really know or understand what they are thinking. I know it hurts something fierce, but remember that he must feel a bit like a wounded pup himself with his brother's death. It doesn't excuse his behavior one bit, but you know that unresolved issues in one R find their way played out in another.
The loan - that's his problem, and more importantly HIS choice, not yours. Don't carry that burden - you have many of your own to handle.