I try to tell myself this....that no matter what I did to save the M, ultimately it wasn't meant to be. Sometimes it is really comforting and sometimes I still feel the "coulda/shouldas" creeping up on me!!
(((((AZURE))))) Thought you could use a hug.
Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.... (thoreau)
If you think you are depressed, you are. Are you taking vitamins? Are you cutting back on sweets? Are you getting exercise? Are you getting out of the house enough? Are you meeting friends? Are you going out into the sunshine? These are things that help with depression. I'm almost an expert on depression. My W had it so bad she went into the mental hosp 3 or 4 times last year for about a week each time for depression. There are pills your doctor can prescribe also. Please take some action, Azure. Ron
My new goal #1. Find happiness and hold onto it. Forget everything else. It doesn't matter. (Happiness helpers: Respect, Friendship, Humor, Music, Passionate Sex)
Azure, Are you there? Are you okay? Do you need help? Ron
My new goal #1. Find happiness and hold onto it. Forget everything else. It doesn't matter. (Happiness helpers: Respect, Friendship, Humor, Music, Passionate Sex)
Hey, Ron (and all), Thanks for your concern. I meant to thank you for the advice the other day, too. That was caring and thoughtful of you. I'm ok. Just doing a lot of reflective thinking. In about a week, on August 6, it will be a year since the bomb. The D papers are due on my birthday mid-August. There just seems to be a lot to sort out in my mind right now, and I'm being quiet in doing it. Don't worry about me -- but thanks for doing so, if you know what I mean! Hugs.
Oh my dear friend - indeed. I know from depression - here's a good recipe. Go rent a powerwasher - powerwash your entire house, then scrape, sand, prime and paint. Trust me - you'll go days without thinking of anything and the white noise in your head will consume all other thoughts and you'll fall into bed so exhausted you can't even dream!
I'm still here for you friend. A little lost but always here and thinking of you so hard you have no idea! Totally
I know there is not much that will take away the hurt, but I PROMISE better days are ahead........focus on YOU right now!!!!!!!!
Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.... (thoreau)
Azure, You can't avoid my question. WHAT ARE YOU DOING ABOUT YOUR DEPRESSION? RON
My new goal #1. Find happiness and hold onto it. Forget everything else. It doesn't matter. (Happiness helpers: Respect, Friendship, Humor, Music, Passionate Sex)