Hi Azure ~ It sounds like you needed some hugs......
I am so sorry you never heard from H about the memorial service. I know it is so hard to know that he is there aan you are not. For some reason you were not meant to go to that service and you have probably saved yourelf a lot of heartache in the long run.
You bring up an interesting point about the timing of your D papers. I calculated that mine would come around my last bday (March) but things got held up and they came around May instead. It did help that the papers came on a date unrealted to any birthdays, anniversaries, etc. Maybe the same will happen for you??!
Looking back, I have found that the timing for everything...from the sep to the papers to fiding out he was dating to even the house selling...have come at a time when I was ready....Somebody up there is looking out for us!!
Hang in there and do something for YOU this weekend!!
Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.... (thoreau)
