Good, Ron! I'm glad you know that about yourself. Yay, you. Just got off an hour-long phone call with H. He got the present today and really liked it. He also was glad to get a birthday card separate from sympathy cards. and he also liked my sympathy card. We had a really good talk, as friends, about the whole thing, the heaviness, the need sometimes to get away from it all, the desire to return to the joys of life, etc. It was good. I felt pretty close to him, but in a different way than before. I didn't feel all desperate for his approval. I felt like he was a friend where we had both been through some serious sh*t, and we could understand each other. I'm glad we talked. (He called and left me a message thanking me for the present, I called back and got his vm and said I was really happy he liked it (plus I was all jolly from hanging out at my neighbor's house), and he called back again to talk (maybe because I was happy-sounding in my vm, and he was so tired of being sad). Anyway, a little part of me wants to cry, but overall it was very, very good.
