Coming back at you, Jen. I just posted a poem on your thread.
Just updating quickly - I'm meeting the musician guy today, we're going for a drive down the coast, with my dog. (My dog is also a barometer to tell me things about people. Especially now that she is older and needs some TLC). I"ve been enjoying my email conversations with him, we have a lot in common, it seems. I'm keeping expectations low, I'd at least like a new friend, and if not even that, just a chance to visit someone else's world and see some things through their eyes. Btw, I had a great time with a girlfriend yesterday, we lay on the rug on my living room floor and talked all afternoon. (I don't know about you all, but I love someone I can lie down and talk to, it's so relaxing and your conversation can meander over all sorts of topics). Last night, I felt such a feeling of sadness come over me, but I decided I would just let it pass through. "Horseman, pass by." Life changes, what are you going to do but stop fighting it and see where the river takes you?
I have not heard from H since Thursday morning, he said he'd call me back later about the memorial service, but he has been completely MIA. Remembering how things were after my dad died, I know how crazy it can be. So I'm trying not to make this at all about me. Like I'll start to think: maybe he doesn't want me to come to the service (see, the timing of the service isn't as crucial b/c BIL was cremated, so it could take place at any time), but then I do the thought-stopping thing and say to myself, "I'm sure H has 11,000,000 other things on his mind right now.")
Hugs to all. We've all had our challenges this week -- is there something in the air?? in the stars??
