Azure, I was gone a few days and just read up to date on your thread. I am so sorry to read about your BIL. You have my sympathy. He was in your life too. And now he is gone. You have done very well in keeping up the communication with H without pushing too hard. Good you can strike that balance. You know his LL and are using it. He will like the gift.
Again, I am sorry for your loss. Consider your own needs.
Friendship Hug!
Ron
My new goal #1. Find happiness and hold onto it. Forget everything else. It doesn't matter. (Happiness helpers: Respect, Friendship, Humor, Music, Passionate Sex)