Hi Smiles, I think it's normal to have frustrated and "wanting to leave" feelings as we confront our marriages and try for change. It sounds like you got the prize last nite, but the effort it took to get there drained you, and now it starts all over again. Sometimes success is scary in itself. I start to feel very negative when we have a backsliding moment...instead of keeping it in perspective, I start thinking "escape" thoughts, and I know that's my signal to pull back a little, take care of myself and take a mental health break. Only time will tell if you and H are destined to stay together, but hang in there for you will certainly grow through it all and may later regret that you didn't. J
