The way things are going with H is he wants to ML once a week..I know some of you think well that's not bad. And yes it could be worse..My problem is he works long hours and is tired through the week wich is understandable.. I have even told him that I will wait until he is ready... Let me know.. Now I am finding myself having hard feelings... See I am willing to wait and try not to put so much pressure on him.. Problem is I am supposed to be ready when he is and it sucks!!! So last night he wanted to it was late we had been doing fireworks with the kids..Well me he watched the race... then all is calm and he wants to and I am tired!!! I told him so.. So he pouts won't admit it but was pouting and I asked him if we could cuddle he said he can't go to sleep that way.. Okay...Well at night he faces me then lays on his back then his back to me just his routine.. Well since I wasn't ready when he was he just turned his back to me... and wouldn't cuddle either.. It hurts I am trying hard to give him his space and not put so much pressure on him but when he is ready I am supposed to be.. I am so tired of it being this way.. Why can't we becasue I really want to and he respects my wants as much and I do his??? I dont know if I make sense but I feel really hurt because since I am HD he excpects me to be ready when he is.. I am tired of being ready when he wants to.. I want to have that at times to isn't that fair.. Can't we meet in the middle? I guess bottom line is I feel he doesn't value my wants and needs and when I do his and don't respond the way he wants he pouts.. Yeah he can pout all he wants but what is so wrong with wanting the same respect in turn? I don't know it seems the harder I try the more resentful I become.. That's not what I want... I just want him to value me too!!! Any advice.. I am feel lost as usual.
