Each person must find their own path - what's valid for me will not be valid for you, because we each have our own issues. For now, forget about your goal of having a lover - that will take care of itself if you do the work. For now, focus first on your attitude towards women in general, and seek to discover why you harbor such anger towards them - and DON'T accept the first (and very obvious) answer that will present itself. Look deeper. Also, look inside yourself and discover how you REALLY feel about CeMar himself.
