Going to put some thoughts here that are going through my mind and maybe help me decide how to handle our anniversary.
I'm struggling about our wedding anniversary which is in two days, Monday. Do I even acknowledge it? To my knowledge H hasn't fully committed to our marriage meaning OW is still in the background, at least I ASSume she is. If OW is still in the picture then WHY would I want to celebrate our anniversary? So part of me wants to just ignore it, act like it's any other day and see if H mentions it.
Another part says...We have not had a "date" since, well I can't even remember when, so it's been that long. Do I say something like H since it's our anniversary on Monday I thought maybe you and I could go out to dinner or to a movie or something, just the two of us, a date? And see how he responds.
Even though we were separated we are still married, seven years on Monday, but how do we celebrate? It just feels awkward.
Last year when he was living with OW, I did give him a card, and received nothing from H, no acknowledgement of any kind, which was fine, I really didn't have any expectations, I golfed that day and H and his boys were up north fishing, so H was with our family, not OW on our anniversary last year.
Right now I'd like it all to go away. That I'd like to leave it completely in H's hands, let H take the lead. His mom sent us a card earlier this week and H did see it so I wonder if his moodiness is due to the fact that he knows it's coming up also.
Or do I grab the bull by the horns, make some plans and just go for it!!! Arghhhh....
Bought some great things today, knicknacks for the living room and a suede coat for me!!
