Weekend was great! Son asked me when daddy was going to be home from fishing and I said Sunday night and S4 said “that’s alright momma you and me can do stuff together” it was sooo cute. We had a great time!! My H was fishing, didn't hear from him till he got home last night.I didn't call him and he didn't call home. I was at my sister's last night, got in the car had a missed call from H, so he was calling to checkin.
When H isn’t there I do soo well detached living my life, loving my life, then he gets back. I wonder did he stop there on the way home as he mentioned something about some road construction that he wouldn't have seen unless he was coming from her house and then ASKED me the detour route..the only reason he would go this way is to HER house. His boat was also clean..I mean how pathetic that I even notice. He was on the river so I know it gets scummy from the water. Then I have to remind myself there is nothing I can do about it anyway, until he figures things out for himself.
Last night was a normal night, just basic chitchat and goofing around until bed time. It's the adjusting back to H being home that's hard and what do I say, do I say "I missed you" I really did, but the basic response is "yeah right" so I do struggle with our interactions and how much of ME to give to H at this time. If he's seeing OW still, it kind of makes me feel like I am competing with HER, she does nice stuff, I do nice things--like make sure he has some snacks/food for lunch..and then I think why? He's getting all the benefits.
Well enough about that, I'm doing my best to focus on me and son and to be very honest the weekends without H are a nice treat.
