Well a "no show" and I'm just mad more than anything, mad that he doesn't care enough to call, mad that he drinks and then goes to OW's, that H isn't strong enough, man enough to just get rid of OW, mad that I'm in this situation. I want to be angry, I want to be mad about the unfairness of this whole situation, that I have to be compassionate, patient, loving and blah, blah when H doesn't know what the he!! he wants!
Oh "I'm still going back and forth until one of you gets sick of it" well I'm getting pretty darn sick of it
It' just makes me so darn mad and I don't know what to do with this anger right now!! I'm being swallowed up by my anger!!! and it's not a good feeling at all!!!
I need some big 180's here, I am no longer the victim, my H cannot blame me for anything anymore or take out anything on me or go way back and bring things up as excuses for his behavior NOW!
