Minnie,

Just between you and me I was downright awful at times. I knew I was being awful yet I couldn't stop myself yaknowwhatImean? I would hate myself afterwards, yet I couldn't be nice, it was too hard.

When I look back at those times, some were pre-H even, I wasn't happy at all thus the reason I acted like that, if I wasn't happy then I didn't want anybody else to be happy either...how selfish was that?! Except I was happy when everyone else was miserable...oh my goodness I was an unhappy person AND not very pleasant to be around either!

Maybe this is why it makes it a little easier to forgive H for his bitterness/ugliness/moods. H isn't happy and when you're not happy other people's happiness can make things feel even worse, IMHO..if any of this makes sense.

Cathy