Hello!!

Golf outing was fun, DEFINITELY room for improvement…for how easy it looks golf is HARD! Our foursome was three woman and a man. The man carried us, he is an awesome golfer!!

As I was heading out to my outing, I called H. First asked how his tuna sandwich was that I had made him for lunch. H said “okay, it was kind of mushy and the bread was soggy. I made it the night before. Dinner the night before wasn’t very good either, hamburgers weren’t cooked all the way through and H ended up tossing his in the garbage. Okay I am not a cook, nor do I play one on TV. These kinds of comments in the past are what drove my decision NOT to cook/make lunches for H. He complained. Hearing it yesterday, I accepted it as the truth, my H does not hold back nor ever has. So I didn’t take it as criticism, it was H being honest. I asked, H answered.

So I replied “oh great, I messed up your hamburger last night and now your sandwich” with kind of a laugh to go with the words. H said “thanks for the effort though.”

Told H about my golf outing, being on vacation last week and just getting back to work forgot about it and wanted to H let know that I would be done in time to pick up S. H said I can pick S up, I’m not fishing tonight.

After golf I went grocery shopping and when I got home H and S were out in the yard playing catch with a soft baseball. Came in the house, H saw my email about our department picnic which is this Sunday. H said something about me never having a department picnic before and I said we haven’t, this is the first year.

We are going up North this weekend and the picnic is on Sunday. H said are you going? I said well I thought WE could all go. H said we’re going up north and we’re not rushing back to go to the picnic! I said I know that, but IF we are back early I would like to go for awhile. I didn’t get upset, took it lightheartedly. We MIGHT be back early and we MIGHT not, but until the day actually gets here I really don’t know when we’ll be back nor does H so no use getting upset about anything at this point. If we missed the picnic it really wouldn’t be that big of a deal either.

I was struggling with how to bring up the picnic with H for the last few days. Not sure why, maybe because I ASSume he won’t want to go. Won’t go to be MY family things, but I ASSume that’s because of our sitch for the last year or so. The people I work do not know our sitch or anything about what’s been happening for the last year or so. I thought the best way (okay cowards way) to bring the subject up with H would be to print out the info and leave it on the counter for H to see…worked I guess.

Some days I'd rather not ask and set myself up for rejection or I just ASSume H, friend, whoever won't want to go anyway so why ask..

There were a few instances last evening where I asked H a question and he either didn’t hear me or ignored me. In the car I looked at him and he had his eyes closed and was rubbing them like he had a headache. When I asked if he had a headache, no answer. Cave time maybe?

Cathy