Yesterday night I decided to have another conversation with my wife about making love. I told her yesterday that I want to make love twice a week. She said that she doesn't feel like it. So I asked her if she would try if she thought that it would make things better between us. She really didn't answere that. so then I asked her if she had any sexual toughts. She said no and that sex really wasn't all that important. I then said do you think you could try thinking about it. She asked why would she do that. I said so that you can start getting that feeling back so be can become close. She then asked me would I eat worms to make our relationship better. I said I might but we aren't talking about something that is disgusting. That this was sex and it was really good feeling and you seem to enjoy it a lot. She said that in the moment it is great. I said well then do you think you can do this. Then again she said that she didn't feel like having sex. So I left it at that.
I am feeling very irriatated about these comments. She wants me to do some things for her. But then expects that she doesn't have to do anything with me that I enjoy. So i have been thinking I would I want to do these things for her. Im not really feeling that EC that says to me wow I feel loved and I love her so I really want to go get that shake for her or help her with something that she wants help with. But without that EC I feel like go get your own damn shake. Or figure it out for yourself.
I mean really what else is ther to do but tell her that I if these things continue that I will be leaving soon. I am very scared about this. Because I will miss my D so very much. That really tears me up in side. ALl yo PM people will probably say that is really fused. I can even see that my wife and I have some of those fused tendancies. I think its time to detach a little and really start to figure out where I want to go.
I will have to take a couple of days to cool off from this because I can tell right now I am hurt and I need to think clearly to do this stuff.
