I just want to encourage you to really take your "me time." I think that this is good, not to just look "more mysterious to h" as you have analyzed, but to feel better about yourself FOR yourself. I know for me, having some time away with my friends doing other hobbies, or just going to the library/bookstore one night by myself, I feel somewhat refreshed. It helps me to feel more dependent on myself rather than H. It helps me to see-yes, I do have a life that doesn't revolve around him...
