Hi everyone, Thanks HoldingOn for the wise words. I read your post right before I left for vacation and kept repeating the words "you are a goddess" and this really helps me get into my normal happy state of being to think this way. So....I had fun - I think H did too, he called from work yesterday saying he wanted to go back immediately. We are continuing the week starting tomorrow night. We did alot of boating and had friends down and went to the fireworks on the lake for a romantic boat cruise. So, I think for now I am not beating myself up and dont think he is calling anyone. He even asks me to go on errands to make me feel better - this used to stress me out and he would make calls on errands making silly runs to the store. That doesnt happen now anyway. He dropped off D7 last night at grandmas and took a while. I called my parents and they said he was in talking with them- so he then picked up something for me and came right home. So my mistrust was for nothing. We have been writing down our feeling to some difficult questions according to retrovaille- H is generally agreeable to this exercise. Last night I touched on this subject and he reassured me.
I find this interesting:
Quote: Sage refers to those negative thoughts coming up when we are ready to face them. So, maybe it is all about you and not about H. Maybe you are just ready to face those fears.
I find this interesting and want to think on this further!! thanks for the ideas! (and I think I actually did the quote thing)
