Didnt post over the holiday weekend. Things were up and down. Lots of silence between us. Not neccessarily bad but obviously not talking too much. I finally spoke up and told H I thought we were somewhat ignoring things. We have scheduled taking 2 weeks off of work for vacation but H hasnt said too much. I read that as hes not too excited about it so doesnt want to plan it. I gave him chance to back out but said thats not what he wanted. Then next day he did speak about the plans and asked about if I was expecting to be back in town for August 7th. That is the day of his company picnic and of course this year is different because of OW. I was planning for H not to go because we would be out of town. He tells me he wants to go and I get upset and tell him he cant go without me... tell her not to go. He gets upset and says SHE works for the company you dont. I walk out of room really upset. Does he really think I would be ok with him going to a "family" company picnic with our kids and without me and socialize with her and her kids. How could he even think about it. Later I go back to him as he was sitting outside and start to speak... he says you dont have to say anything or apologize etc. I say I am not apologizing for anything and just want to ask you.. "how much do you think I can take" I think that finally got through to him. The next day I give him the chance to leave as I just dont think I can do this anymore. He isnt the least bit reassuring, hes always down in the dumps etc etc. He says hes not leaving he wants to work it out and he needs to get better to reassure me and be more positive about things working out. I know in the back of his mind though he thinks he will end up going to the picnic and I will be ok with it. I want so bad to be ok with it but I know on that day if he walks out the door to go to the picnic I will be a mess and I shouldnt have to do that.
Please someone tell me I am not being unreasonable and he should give it up this year or ask her not to go.
