I am feeling so many conflicting things about your understanding and decision in your situation. I value and respect your integrity and also respect the time and your patience in coming to this decision.
So many of us look to you and feel that we learn so much from your insights. Here, for me, is where the conflict lies. I see so many parallels. I see so many similarities.... I know that we come to these choices in our own time.
I have to admit that I am ..... trepidatious..... when viewing this outcome because, not being emotionally ready to make the decision you are making... I am only projecting myself into your situation and feeling the loss that I would feel. I can see that you have gone way further along than I and are prepared in so many ways that I cannot yet imagine...
I still, (I hope you understand) pray for an awakening to love and passion and desire, in my situation with my h. I am just not sure how that dream manifests or even if it can.
For now though, you are still the absolute model of grace and clarity and i admire you.
