Honeypot--What a sweet thing that you thought of me on vacation! I've been thinking of you too, and praying for a very easy remainder of your pregnancy (this is something I do now).

Well, at this point I really don't want to look for anything that he could do to change my mind? I really want to let go and let God. I really sense relief from him that we are just going to be very cooperative friends. Hey, wouldn't you have thought in the many phone chats last week that he would have asked me to schedule a time to talk? That would have been a start.

But I really just come back to the thought of being wanted. I sense that he's struggling with what he wants, not knowing if I'm part of that mix. I know enough now to know that I really need something more. I really am okay with this path, Honey. Really.

And if something earth shattering and ground breaking shall occur to change things, I won't be putting them under the microscope and analyzing them because they will be big.

Right now, I really am feeling content.

Merrick, my politically oriented friend, I have absolutely NOOOOOO interest in a political OM. This guy was one of a few straight men there and you know what his opening line to me was? (After he stood aside checking out my form... from head to toe.) "What a really great discreet tattoo! Do you have any more of them?"

WTF? After a convo about how the people like to be kissed before they get f*#cked, I was a little nervous. I forced my good friend to literally glue himself to my side for the rest of the evening. Yes, he's gay and he'd do anything for me!

And when I do get that next tattoo, it's going to be very discreet. Then I can punch this guy's lights out!

Betsey

"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."

Albert Einstein