Hi there Bets, I've only covered what you posted this week since returning from some time off from work. (dial up from home is just too slow to try to keep up here.)
Since I started reading your posts, I sense you do tend downplay an extraordinary "animal magnetism" that you possess - even when you are not on your game. Around here, the coons make a nuisance of themselves usaully by making a mess out of your trashcans. Its the skunks that you have to watch for that tend to crawl where you don't expect them (sheds, garages, etc).
I can empathize with your sense of fatigue. This a loooong process, but that doesn't mean we have to try to outperform the Energizer bunny. Its a necessity that we recharge our batteries from time to time and preferably on a regular routine basis in order to avoid getting stuck in the dark.
Quote: ... And I don't see myself living like this much longer."
In fact, Bets, maybe its time to climb out of the lighthouse for a while and let Mr.W shine his beacon for a while. It seems he found the "On" switch. Time to sit back and see how bright he can make it glow. It may become bright enough to attact you to the light!