You were so wonderful to me last week when I was in the middle of a meltdown. You validated the utter fatigue I was feeling and... I want to turn around and do the same for you.
As far as any of us looking at this and thinking, as you wrote, ""She got what she wanted! Now get moving!"" I want you to consider it differently.
First...you have not come this far worrying FOOLISHLY about what others might think... don't start now! Second....I doubt that any of us would feel this...even if we are anxious and excited to hear a happy ending.... Third... Every success we have on our db path usually comes when we are really listening and validating what is true. In this case, you need to validate what is true for you and take the time you need to strengthen yourself for this last great PUSH> ah yes... you remember those, don't you? and always they are preceeded by tremendous exhaustion....
Another analogy that comes to mind for me as I consider your fatigue, is the jetlag factor that accompanies a journey. When some folks get jet lag it is a matter of which direction they have flown...I have always found that direction is irrelevant. I tend to keep it all together during the journey and only fall apart once I land on home territory or close to it. It is as if I save up all that fatigue and live on raw nerve energy as I traverse unfamiliar ground. Once "home" it all catches up with me.
Take your time. Pace yourself. Breathe. You may be close to "home" but you will be db'ing the rest of your life (won't you?). Give yourself the rest and restoration to take this new branch on your path.
