Friends, Squatters & Lurkers--Fishbowl musings

[Underdog]

Thanks guys!

I will be taking my vitamins, HOn, and any other fortifying substance required to stomach what might lurk on this path.

Little Bill put it how I think of this mess: cautiously optimistic. Of course, I am optimistic by nature anyway, and I know that I will land on all fours with my parts intact.

Oddly enough, my conversation was delivered with dignity and quiet strength and there wasn't a tear looming on the horizon. And what surprised me is that he was not reacting to anything I said. His side was delivered with conviction and a modest amount of humility.

But talk is cheap at this point, you know?

I'm interested enough to listen, after all I've been waiting for him to speak for 18 months. I'm determined to get peace, and I'm willing to pay a price for it. I just don't know what color and shape it will look like yet, though.

PIB, I don't know if I'm ready for all of this. But I figure I'll devote some time to prayer and meditating and rely on the help of my fellow helicopter pilots to see this through.

I'm also really proud of my D10. I thank God every day for blessing me with her and her talent for getting me to see things the way they are. After all, it was she who told me the night her dad moved out that my anger scared her...

I don't know if I'm comfortable being an inspiration... but if anyone else has learned from my mistakes (and my skirmishes and my successes), I'm glad. I'm not advising this path for anyone... the timing was right and the risk was worth it.

So hold on tight. We'll see where this ride takes us.

Betsey