Thanks for responding..

(From what you said, it sounds as though your H really and truly feels that your internet "obsession" is preventing you from doing what he feels should be your priorities as a mother and wife? How do you feel about this statement?)


This statement is absolutely 100% correct.... with that said.. I am struggling with not being self centered..

At the moment there can be no R talk unless he initiates it. It seems to push him further out the door, and he immediately closes down. So for now I will have to keep that part of my feelings here. It seems when i dont bring up the issues he is in a calmer mood...

One thing I question... How do you pretend to be happy??? In the book it emphasises showing that you are happy and content... But if i'm not happy and content, how do i do it without coming off as fake, or even sarcastic.. the sad thing is, i guess i have forgotten what not being negative and nagging feels like .... pretty sad statement...

I'm rambling.

He spent all day working on a transmission. we fought this morning I messed up and spouted out that being critical was becoming one of his most used features.. and he said self pity was becoming mine He left and then i sucked up my crappy mood and made him lunch and brought it to him. He didnt thank me.. and i didnt press the issue... We are being civil atleast... Short goal for self..

1. Once i'm done here.. sign off the Internet and find something else to do... read a book, watch a movie. Take a bath something to keep my mind of the Internet, and off what he is thinking.

2. Do not bring up anything about R.

3. Act content when he gets home, and thankful that he took the time to work on a vehicle that "I" wanted.

4. Go to bed a decent hour instead of staying up until midnight!!

and final goal.. get up before the kids in the morning so that i am more receptive to them and not so crabby to have to get out of bed.(hoping going to bed at a decent hour will help that)...

Thanks again... i'll update tomorrow..