major backslide tonight I guess my Internet Addiction isnt doing so well. H noticed i was on it a lot today, and then when i went on tonight he got angry with me. Instead of validating... i told him that he was acting like a parent and trying to control me he went to bed and i followed him... he asked me to leave him alone and I persisted I didnt do like i used to and really pummel him with attacking words... but he just told me that he was scared that i was going to hurt him... and that it was eating him up... that he didnt know if he could stay in a relationship with me emotionally He told me that i think of only myself and not him or the boys this made me cry...

I am very selfish and sometimes i do think the Internet comes before my family. How do i break this habit? Anyway he got some stuff together to leave.. and I stopped him.. I begged it didnt push him out the door however, he stopped and came back in the house. I have been silent while he plays video games. He knows i am online now looking at our financial situation. I"m at a loss for these outbreaks.. and my need to be online all the time.
thanks for listening... i'm tired, my head hurts and i'm going to bed..