I just read through my own post, and then signed off the computer.. I sat in the recliner while he was watching tv... i became a puppy dog.... wanting his attention.. letting sighs out of me hoping that he would ask me what the matter was... i got myself ready for bed.. its only 8:45.... Hoping that he would ask why.. and then i walked past him without much on hoping that he would take the bait... Now i'm in bed... laptop in front of me, and him still in the livingroom watching tv. Why do i play these games, why do things still come down to him. I so want to be the independent woman that entertains herself. And quite honestly i would like to entertain myself without the aid of the computer. Not that this site isnt great because it is, but its too tempting to go get attention from OM. I hate being so needy. I knew this would happen as soon as we got home. I'm sorry to vent.. i just know i need to do it here and not to him. A complete 180 means no discussing the relationship.. and quite honestly its killing me... i'm going to hang out around here and read up some more... hopefully when i sign off I will keep my mouth shut and just go to sleep!!! thanks in advance
