My first shift back on nights and in the wee hours I finally find the first quiet period in the last three weeks in which to update what's been going on in my life...
Three weeks ago I was informed I was being suspended from work pending an investigation to determine termination. That suspension period turned out to be for 10 days. When all was said and done, I still have kept my job, however, I'm basically on probation. So I have placed a renewed found focus on my performance at work. That in turn, meant less time keeping up on the bb ... which in turn helped detach a bit more from my sitch and I found myself for the most part really not wanting to post about it.
... but I know there's folks out there who have been wondering, as your kind emails have enlighten me.
After the initial shock wore off, CAW had been very support of me. In fact, she had asked me to stop by after my "hearing". After telling about it, she snuggled close and we stayed close to each other for a while, before I excused myself and left. That Saturday evening when I dropped D11 off, CAW asked if I can stay a while and I did and with her suggestion I ended up spending the night. She also asked if she could come over on Sunday to do laundry. I said no problem. When we arrived, I made breakfast for all. As she did the laundry, she asked if she could use the computer and eventually we ended up watching the football game during the afternoon. So we spent most of the day together ... a first since she moved out.
Next Wednesday is when I found out I still had my job, so called her up and asked her out on a "date" Friday night to celebrate I still had my job. She accepted and asked do she needs to dress up for it? I asked, "Wouldn't usually dress up for a date?" and she replied, "I never been on one?" (Yes, we've been on dates ... even in the last couple of years, but I guess she's afflicted with total amnesia, but I let it slide.) So I made reservations at a restaurant we have never been to ... one right on the riverfront and has received rave reviews for fine dining. While waiting for our meal it came up in conversation that she hoped I'd bring her here. So I said I guessed I scored one with my pick of restaurant. She came back with you scored two so far. I responded with a quizzical look. She said you gave me flowers when you picked me up and the way this date is going you're likely to score again! Later as we talked, I did bring up that this isn't actually our first date and reminded her of a couple of my more memorable ones which sparked her recollection, but still continued to play along thruout the night that this was our first. As it turns out we never got to the bottle of wine that I picked up for later and even slept in late the next morning ... but after getting up she seem to be in a rush to get back to the apartment, declining my offer to make her breakfast. Oh I almost forgot to mention ... while laying in bed ... she blurted out one of her typical one liners ... "I'm glad you didn't leave." I thought "WTF. I leave? You're the one that DID leave!" Then she explained that she had talked to D19 who mentioned that if I had lost my job, I was considering staying with my parents down south. So she's glad that I won't be leaving now and if I did she would have been very sad. So while she doesn't want to be my W, she does want me to be part of her life ... how do they put it ... friends with benefits ... so it seems. She even made some mentions about our next date ... like the next place she wants us to go eat at.
During the following week, she called me at work and asked for a favor. She wondered if I could pick her up from work on Wednesday and if we could run a few errands she needed. I said OK. When I picked her up she had some leftovers from the kitchen she mention were going to be dinner. Without any more elaborating, I played it cool as-if she wasn't including me for dinner. One of the errands was to see her boss at the office, I stayed in the car. While waiting step-D24 called asking for her Mom. When I said she's currently with her boss, step-D24 said she called wonder if she should make something for dinner. I said your Mom is bring something home for dinner. When CAW came back out, I told about the call and she said in a disappointed tone, "Oh, I thought you'd bring me back to your place and we would have dinner there." I said, "That's a great idea, but when you mentioned about dinner, you didn't specifically include me, so I wasn't going to presume to be included." So we ended up back at my place. Her back was really bothering her, so I gave her a massage until D11 showed up from school. Then CAW wanted to access her bank account on-line, but was having trouble with the connection. Shortly after her mood changed and she decided she wanted to go home. Upon asking D11, she wanted to go too, so it looked like I'd be eating dinner alone! I let my disappointment show thru, but I don't think she even noticed as she seemed to be wrapped up in herself again.
... and that pretty much is where I'm at. I'll be working alit this week including the weekend, but D11 has a band concert Thursday and I will be off for that. CAW said she thought I was going to be working that night and would miss it, then said she's so glad I will be there. Oh and I did put in to take Halloween night off too.
Later as we talked, I did bring up that this isn't actually our first date and reminded her of a couple of my more memorable ones which sparked her recollection, but still continued to play along thruout the night that this was our first. As it turns out we never got to the bottle of wine that I picked up for later 
and even slept in late the next morning ... but after getting up she seem to be in a rush to get back to the apartment, declining my offer to make her breakfast. Oh I almost forgot to mention ... while laying in bed ... she blurted out one of her typical one liners ... "I'm glad you didn't leave." I thought "WTF. I leave? You're the one that DID leave!" 
Then she explained that she had talked to D19 who mentioned that if I had lost my job, I was considering staying with my parents down south. So she's glad that I won't be leaving now and if I did she would have been very sad. So while she doesn't want to be my W, she does want me to be part of her life ... how do they put it ... friends with benefits ... so it seems. She even made some mentions about our next date ... like the next place she wants us to go eat at. 
