KAW, Just checking in! You sound like you are handling things pretty good. I totally understand the not wanting to come home to "discover" what is gone, now. Been there, done that! It is truly an awful feeling. Too much anxiety! Though for the life of me, at the time, it never occured to me to tell H how I felt.
When you can't make a decision because you are torn between your heart and your head, listen to the half with the brain.
