All that kept running through my head as I read was "KAW deserves better"...what shape or form or time frame, I don't know, but like LL I'm really IRKED at your W for keeping you on this roller coaster so long.
Shiny
P.S. if CJ had not made a dramatic reaffirmation of his desire for this M to work and his love for me in Feb. of '03...if OW were still lurking, and CJ was still being mean and flip floppy?......I really don't think we'd be together...