can't help but say that I'm pissed off to find you still struggling and hear that CAW is still waffling but I think you've hit on some very important things.
CAW isn't the person you knew and may not likely return to being that person you knew and liked.
What can you do about that? Nothing!
What can you do? enjoy YOUR life, do things for YOU! You know the drill...you've done it at times before don't do it as a means to draw CAW out do it because it will make your life full whatevers going to happen with you and CAW is going to happen but the sooner you start dropping that rope and living for you (not saying to wrap the rope up and put it away just drop it for now) not changing what you are doing once you get busy living life and leave CAW to her own devices If she somewhere along the line chooses to pick up the rope that's fine but if not you'll at least be taking care of you and enjoying life for a change...maybe someday the rope will be put away or the frayed ends will be mended and you each will hold an end again.
