HP, Don't worry about the laugh thing. I'm always kidding. I'll be the one telling a joke as I jump off the ledge.
This weekend, W clarified what she said the other day. She told me that she thinks several times a day about how she should be wanting sex, but not as often that she really wants it. I told her that her "NO" response to me was a real killer and took me back to the first time she said "NO" 23 years ago. Even if she wouldn't (MB for me), acting like she'll consider it would be such a boost for me. (Am I easy or what?)
Later that day, I told her that I wanted to say something that I really didn't want her to respond to, just listen. I explained to her that her refusal to let me F**k her from behind (my fantasy position) had become a symbol to me of her overall rejection of me. I explained how one book (Sheet Music, Kevin Leman) suggests it in front of a mirror to maintain eye contact which helps some women who see it as "animalistic behavior". I said that there could never be a time where she would look more beautiful to me than that.
Her response (which I asked her not to give)? "Why would you use the one word that you know I hate (F**k) to talk to me about sex?"
