These are things that I have definitely thought about - almost on the fringes of my mind - like not wanting to put a voice to it in my own head.
I know that he works hard at not letting Crohns rule his life - it is like he is fighting back at every turn.
I am hoping the opportunity to speak to him about it will come up soon. I have never really laid it all out on the line at one time - I always have it in my head NOT to unduly upset him and make things worse.
On the other hand I am tired of being upset over this issue time after time. I am hungry for his love and affection in a sexual sense. I know he loves me and he is good to me. If our sex life wasn't giving me grief at this moment our life would be pretty darn good.
I want him to read the book - it has such wonderful insites in it that it is like she wrote it with me in mind.
Thanks for caring Honeypot. I haven't had anyone to talk to about this-not even my best friend who I could tell anything. It is just too hard to talk about especially to her - she has known me for years and she has certainly heard all of my great bedroom stories! The last thing I want to talk about is that they are just becoming memories.
I just keep it to myself. I have a job where I drive alot (outside sales rep) and sometimes long drives are great and other times it gives me way to much time to think about negative things!
I am keeping busy though - took a fondant cake class in a city 2 hours away today. My cake looked pretty fantastic! Not as great as sex but pretty good and heck - I can eat it too!
