Friends, Squatters and Lurkers--Life in a fishbowl

[Briget]

Tj our knight on a white horse.Thank you for coming to our dear Betseys defense.

Now on to Pens question.

First I can honestly say right now I would not take him back.At least not the way he is.He was a very kind loving man.If he could become that man again I would be willing to try again.

Having said that I believe that man is still in there somewhere.Under all the anger towards me for getting sick and not taking care of it sooner.

I'm sure as a MD you have seen familys fall apart when one gets sick.I know that is a contributing factor.Not the only one my temper got me there.But the woman he was married to while I was sick was a monster.I can blame it on hormones and all but some of it was just plain old anger at the world.

Now he is doing the same to me.I can bare it.

The reasons for staying in the marriage are practical first.

Financally I can not afford to be divorced.I have a high school education and a few typing classes.While staying for money isn't romantic and I am romantic by nature it is a sturdy reason to stay.

I really do love him.Not the romantic kind.I would lay down my life for him.(But I do miss romance in the worst kind of way.)

I miss him.I miss the man he used to be.

Ipromised to love him forever and that is a promise I intend to keep.

I do not believe in divorce.Except for drugs and abuse.I believe these are deal breakers.

I'm not sure these are popular reasons but they are mine.

My cousulor has asked me why would I take a man back that has hurt me and continues to hurt me.The only answer is how can I not when I remember what I had before he lost his ever loving mind.

Later Friend.
Love,
Briget