I thank you for looking deep within yourself for those insights and feelings you have shared. I know hard it can be to face those realizations but the results are certainly benefiting others as well as yourself.
I just hope it hasn't caused you too much pain to reflect on this subject. If it has/is, don't feel like you owe me or anyone else a reply.
You've said many things I can relate to, I think my WAW is very much in the mindset you were in. Easier to start over, no ideals to live up to, no expectations, not thinking of consequeces, wanting attention and doing things that get it, even negative or passive aggressive.
It sounds like things ended with OM when H saw the email and then H took his stand and wanted to file? Sounds like you voluntarily ended it then, can you recall why?
Throughout this time of living your movie, I get the sense you felt you had this safety net H to return to after it was all over? It doesn't sound like he knew about OM until the email.
Has anyone read the Four Agreements? It states everyone is their own star in their own movie, kind of interesting. It was recommended to me but I haven't read it yet.
Thinking and facing these things is hard. Thank you for sharing Pam.
