H2H--Well, since I'm feeling completely childish and petty, I am going to really let this person completely out so she can get on with the healing...
Quote: I ask you: would you actually prefer or be happier if he was miserable and suffering great consequences? Would it make your fight easier if you knew he was fighting a similar battle?
Well, at the moment, yeah, it WOULD make me feel better! He actually described all the wonderful things that have happened in his journey since we lost contact. It pissed me off! I wish I could write back about all the pitfalls I've encountered.
Truly, I wish he didn't even contact me. But I guess the truth of it is that I discovered quite by accident that I have not healed here. It's time.
And Triple J is right about something. I AM hurt. OM was a childhood friend. I lost that friend. I know he wishes me well, and in my heart, I wish him the same. But I want some love too! I want Mr. Wonderful to make a decision. Because I want to have a R with a man. Wahhhhhhh, wahhhhhh, this is the Betsey pity party. I'm not issuing invitations, so stay away!
Pam, I laughed hard at the letter to myself. I AM a MFer!!! And I'm having a selfish and self-absorbed moment just like you described. Here he is living the life of Reilly and I'm fighting for Mr. Wonderful. Jeez, Louise, macaroni and cheese, he BETTER be worth the fight!
The bottom truth is that I wouldn't have made progress on these fronts without those lessons. I know that I've learned quite a bit about myself because of my A with him. This is all good in the grand scheme. I know it and I realize exactly what I need to do to get where I want to be.
I just need to vent this stuff so I can heal. Guess it means more work in my camp.
I'm going to get busy with that. I swear. *Grumble and sigh.* I'm going. Now.
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Betsey 
