My Goodness, Betsey! You’re human! So feel what you need to feel, and move on. I often look at couples and wonder why they are happy while my H and I can’t seem to get it right. I look at women that have gained a zillion pounds after the wedding, and I wonder “why does her H love her, and mine lost it for me?” Am I proud of those feelings? Nope. But, I still feel them. Ya see, Betsey, being honest about them is about all you can do. And, it is certainly a lot more than most people do…..
p.s. I really think that most of the anger is really the stuff about not being stronger. Maybe you should write yourself a letter... "Hey Betsey, ya dumb MFer.... quit beating yourself up. The past is what it is, and it made you what you are today. And that is a pretty incredible thing...."
(the bad word is just there for effect. I don't really think you're a MFer....)
