Journey,
Aw give that girl a big hug from me too. Poor baby.

Yes H has even said to me that the fact that it is always available makes him less 'hungry' for it. I know this is an inescapable fact of a desire clash, but you are right..I am not the type to play games so that just wouldn't work for us. I have never tried to make ANYONE jealous, ever, as far as I can recall. If they felt jealous, that was their problem. I am not the type of person to do questionable things in order to get attention. (well except in the privacy of my own bedroom, lol!)

So while I do think that he likes that I am an open book, it probably also makes me a tad boring in his eyes. He knows where I am, what I am doing and what I am thinking about (sex). One of the things that makes a new relationship so exciting is that the other person is NOT an open book and there is an element of excitement.

When I worked, there was more of this because I was gone from him for the entire day. He didn't know where I was or whom I was talking to, or who I might have lunch with. (I traveled and was bad about reporting in where I was going every day..I came home to him every night so why bore him with the details I thought) Again, I never once did anything questionable but he didn't know my exact whereabouts and whowithabouts for every stinkin day of my life.

However, even back then he was not as sexually stimulated by me as I wanted him to be, so that is not the entire equation.
I have no problem with finessing out of him what I need but that has been comprising nearly ALL of our interactions lately and that's gotta go. The other interactions were mercy sex. I am going to stand firm that he learn how to show desire. He told me last week that he felt desire for me on Saturday afternoon and then again on Tuesday night.
Now, this sounds excessively LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW to me. I did not say that to him, but I will admit it to you!
I just replied, Mmm hmmm.. what did you do with it when you felt it?
He said, not much. Waited til the evening and then decided if he was too tired to do anything with it. I'll let you guess the rest.

Oh well, I feel good today. It is hard for me to mope for two whole days.