Yes, I'm here and reading away, Honey! Congrats on your new addition to the family too.
I'm glad my own realizations helped you figure out what was not helping you. Isn't this what friends are for? Though I really wish I hadn't had to go through so much muck to get to the point where I realized it too.
Forgiveness is one of my big themes in this lifetime. Every time I think I get it, I get another lesson that proves otherwise. You're absolutely right about the euphoria you feel when that burden is ditched.
We aren't all that different, Honey. I'm also HD... and while Mr. W. isn't LD, his resentment and hurt diverted the blood supply to his Mr. Winky for a long time. I figured out that it was a symptom of a bigger problem, and much of it had to do with me. However, the common denominator in all his problems is HIM.
As long as I'm interested in assessing blame somewhere, I'm not seeing the potential to resolve the core problems that are right in front of me.
Look at it this way, by the time your little one arrives, you're going to have all this stuff ironed out so you can concentrate on being a great mom. Something tells me that you're going to do a terrific job at that new role.
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
