Glad to hear you are doing something to move yourself out of limbo one way or the other. You are handling it they way you think you need to, and hopefully that works for you. Unless your OM says (and does) "I am leaving my W for you" then nothing should sway you from your course of action. I say that because I think I see a bit of doubt there, although you know in your head that he is following an established pattern.
You mention that you have alot of time to "wallow" in this....is this time you could use to do something (hobbywise) that you've always wanted to do? Just thinking that if you take up your time being busy, it might help you over the "hump"....
I wouldn't worry too much about what your H says at this time, as if you stick to it and really manage to "break the spell" he will notice then.
So what will be your next step after you get everything "off your chest" and deal with the OM trying to get you back and you getting closure on that by saying no and sticking with it? Just trying to give you something to think about for your M plan. Do you have any attainable goals that you are thinking about, once your are done with your OM?
Keep at it A.....A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.
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