You dropped off this board at a time when I was away from it too, travelling, so I didn't know what happened to you. I just now came across this sad thread. I was sorry to hear your news. It certainly does throw some light on your H's strange behaviour.
I hope you have been able to work through all this and look after yourself? I hope you have moved through some of the stages of acceptance, as we all have to about so many things. I hope you have received much support from your family and friends, and that you are experiencing new growth, peace and strength.
Whatever your H has done, it is no reflection on you, Water.